Discernment

The other revelation that has surfaced is about life after my service program. This entire school year, my soul continues to speak "teaching isn't right, this is hard, I don't enjoy this) The last 5 months I had had negative attitudes not only toward teaching but it has extended into my relationships with others. I have been worrying and confused about where God is calling and kept thinking what a failure (I will have my Master's in Education and am not going to use it) This was until the Spirit spoke through Msgr. Swetland. Msgr. spoke about vocation and God's will. That the 10 commandments are our guide that this is the blueprint for life and yes Christ came to fulfill the law, not abolish the law.

Through discernment we are able to hear the will of God. Msgr. talked about how people will say "I don't know where God is calling?" Through prayer, you are able to discern, through being faithful, when you hear and listen, and saying yes to life that is fulfilling. Fulfilling doesn't mean easier. For an easy life isn't a life that God has called anyone to. Life has suffering and with suffering we are closest to our Savior. How hopeful and encouraged should we all be that our sins are forgiven and the greatest suffering already has happened on the cross.

Through the next 6 months, I vow to God, to commit my life to prayer to growing so close to Him that I know where I am being called. An example that Msgr. gave was "I have a close relationship with my mom and when I am home my mom can just look at the garbage in a certain way and I know to take it out. She doesn't even need to speak. In this same way your relationship with God should be this close where you are able to hear His voice" Through prayer is how a relationship is built. I used to think prayer was when I would tell God what I wanted to do and then did it. No, this is not what discernment is, it is taking time to pray and listen. At this point, I feel that God is calling me to be a FOCUS missionary. With my desire to work with college students, journey in faith, in Catholicism, and sharing the Gospel. Through opportunities and calls that I've been given (Newman Center, Summer Project) If this is God's will, He will confirm it through prayer. If not, my prayer is that I am shown the direction and that I listen.

After all of this, the one thing that I know is that we are all Made for More and saying yes to being someone who is made for more.